Had another check-up - still smiling

Been back for my 3-month check with the oncologist. Had a physical examination and there was nothing to cause concern. I don’t have to go back until the new year; I am so relieved. I’m looking in to having surgery on my ovaries, rather than the zoladex approach. My reaction to zoladex doesn’t seem very [...]

Reflection…two years

A time for reflection. Two years ago, I found a lump in my breast. It changed everything.
 I am a very different person now; all my priorities have changed, there are no expectations of having a future, so anything I want to do has to be done in the short term.  My career came to [...]

Dealing with depression

This is one area that I have hesitated about sharing. It feels like a taboo subject, very personal, and yet I’m not entirely sure why, given all the other aspects of my physical disease I have covered.
In the first month after finding the cancer, I was hit with wave after wave of bad news, and [...]

Starting chemo - Autumn 2007

Before starting chemo, I had a fitting for a wig. Then, if there were any delays getting the wig, I would have some time in hand. Also, I was seen whilst I still had hair, so the fitter could see what I looked like, and also before the chemo took its toll while I still [...]

First meeting with the oncologist

At the meeting with the oncologist, we ran through my medical history and then I had an examination. I was also asked:

when did my periods start (answer - 14)

how long had I been on the pill (answer - on and off since my twenties)

did I smoke (answer - never)

how much alcohol did I drink (answer - nothing)

At [...]

Things on my mind…

The appointment with the oncologist is getting closer, sometimes can’t sleep, other times feel exhausted and sleep in the day. Been for my portacath flush this week, which all went smoothly. Starting to have some difficult discussions at work, wondering whether my role/contract needs to be changed. Trying to keep getting outdoors every day to [...]


I got a call from the oncologist’s secretary today - time to book an appointment. I have been skulking around avoiding hospitals for long enough, it seems. It feels a bit like being
summoned to the headmistress’s or headmaster’s office - not sure whether I’ve been naughty or good! I think it’s probably time for another [...]

Who to tell…

I went out for a meal with my parents last night; it was enjoyable but it got me thinking. I have told my father everything about my health. He is a quiet, gentle man and it left him devasted at the outset; we were always close and comfortable in each other’s company. He is the [...]